Staring at the ceiling

I was laying on the couch, staring at the ceiling. I was three minutes late from a zoom meeting I was supposed to host. All of a sudden I was able to snap out of it, got up and started the zoom meeting.

Before I snapped out of it, I was in a dark place. Very dark. Despite the living room was filled with sunlight.

I love sunlight.

In a scary and alarming way, I also found comfort in the fact that at least I had an outline of a plan already.

Later I was reflecting on what happened.

Started going through the list of questions in my head:

• what started this?
• how did I get here?
• what could I have done differently to prevent this?
• is there anything anyone could help to prevent this?

And where do I even go from here?

Even I knew this current path wasn’t sustainable any longer. I had to take action.

The posts you are going to find here are going to capture moments, feelings and who-knows-what-else before and after this very dark moment.