Maybe Back
Sitting at the airport, about to put some serious distance between some people I love very much and me, while significantly reducing the distance between me and other people that are very important to me.
I have been thinking about writing a new post here for so long, yet with every passing week, no new post. This trip might just be the catalyst to change that…
It’s a gloomy day out there, when I look through the large windows of the airport. But it is not gloomy at all in my head and my heart.
Things in my head and my heart could not be any more clearer. It took a couple beers earlier to unlock my mind from that busy-life hamster-wheel-mode to see how I truly feel. For sure this trip will offer even more clarity, but I wanted to capture this initial feeling for reference.
The fact of the matter is: I love her. I already miss her. And then the girls. I am very thankful for them and I wish I could be an even better father for them. And about The Boss? I am still 100% convinced it was the right decision to divorce her. I have zero doubt in my mind.
The girls are amazing in their own unique ways.
My favorite skier is really handling the divorce and the new reality of things in a very mature way. Not sure where that maturity is coming from. I guess some people can act immature most of the time, but find that mature personality when it comes to some serious matters in life. She is growing up to be one of these people.
My favorite climber hass had quite a bit of challenge to process the divorce. I very much appreciated when she finally shared how she truly feels: that despite of the fact that she understands that her parents are divorced, she is still having a hard time concluding that the divorce actually happened. That also explained why she has been staying away from The Beautiful whenever she was spending the weekend at our place. It is all right. We will leave my favorite climber time to get used to the new reality.
Then here is The Beautiful. She entered my life very unexpectedly. I was about to give up on all the dating apps, deleting all profiles and start looking into the future focusing on the girls, career and outdoors. Then from my last batches of first pings, she responded. We started chatting, then met, then the rest is history. We have been together for more than 6 months by now. I am very happy for that!
So with that I will wrap up this post and let’s see if I will be able to start any kind of regular cadence here with various details from my life as a single parent: divorced dad of two.