Struggle Behind The Smile

Coping through sharing

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What are you thinking about?

She asked this question the same way as she always does. I can’t remember what and how I started talking about, but one thought led to another and all of a sudden I started sharing a couple examples about overthinking.

She listened patiently. Very patiently. I am not sure if deep down what I shared scared her or she was rather simply truly appreciating the fact that I opened up and shared about something deeply personal and very vulnerable, especially as an overthinker.

You see: now I am overthinking about overthinking…

I very much appreciate her and the patience she shows whenever we have a deep conversation about very personal details.

I want to believe that she is here to stay.
I want to believe that she is for real.
I want to believe that she is genuinely interested in me as I am.
I want to believe that she accepts me as I am.
I want to believe that she loves me as I am.

I love her.

Whenever she says “I love you”, I want to believe that she actually means it and she truly loves me.

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